Saturday, October 18, 2008

i'm feeling so wary.
so awful.
so out of place.
so ugly.
why is it i always end up hurting people.
closest or not, i still do.
i can only totally be myself when i'm at home.
shitt. i feel schizophrenic,
like i have an alter ego.
sometimes i really hate mirrors.
when people say looks don't matter.
they are lying through their bare teeth.
like sure, tell me that when i'm like 50 years older
then i'll smile a teethless smile,
my wrinkles crinkling up
and start preaching all the little girls around me.
for now,
i'm not blind to all the double standards.

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