Everything happens for a Reason

yes, dig my own grave.

she wasnt sad. she just died a lonely soul

tangible evidence i tried to give up

from 163 to 153 (: i love vanehneh

this is what happens when your phone has no infared. a trick i learnt from someone while webcamming :D


unforgettable benevolence (:

AH MU IS 15 ! HAAAPY BIRTHDAY FELLOW SADIST :D hahas. slykor came back with a mega chocolatey cake. stupid mrt ride home with him and talking abt his' puppy love' and breaking of kbox screen. note to thee pig: xue zhe fangqi. wang qian kan (: okaa, i'll try.

surprisingly, i wasnt on a high this week considering how little the tests and hmwk were. guess i was jus worn out? been harping so much, saw something today that blew me off. guess i should have expected it a long time ago. its a clearer sign i should forget.

dance lost its allure this week. deng laoshi pangseh-ed us yesterday, wasted all the time that could have been for hiphop. though i like that 'kbox' room liuxing and me found (: i'm still comtemplating on joining. yea but all and all, i hope chialing and liuxing get in ! :D

michael talked so long that by the time i got back it was 10. mans, the lashing down last night was awful. this morning was way worse. why cant she jus leave me be? to her, i'm jus a trophy to show off to her relatives. now that i aint got no first, i've lost my value? its times like this that life loses its meaning. the one thing i'm probably valuable for is the thing i hate. it brought me up, threw me back down. now whatever i get aint good enough until i get that '1'. dumb yes, but my old ways are tempting. cos, i don think i can hold it all down forever.

the ride back last night was weird. i was kinda shocked when she asked me abt my dad. i mean, he's only been in my life for like the first 3 years. i thought she would have known, thinking i was close to her. i guess i'm wrong. i'm hoping what she said wasnt true, cos i seem to know another him. but then again, what do i know? never knew anything before. suddenly, everyone feels alien.

the walk from the mrt station to my grandma's house, and from tampines to pasir ris was short. but i just wished someone was there to accompany me, cos i so missed that feeling of knowing someone was there.