screwed.

my life now is like some sorta blur. stupid game it always plays, messes up my mind like completely.

sometimes, there's just this weird earning for someone. someone you don even know personally. someone you know you wont even get a chance to talk to. but you just think about them. its like running away from reality. hurt once and all your trust and confidence just shattered. suddenly, you get all these advances but you're not a bit interested. the past haunts and taunts you everyday. and yet, no matter how bittersweet it was, you just cant let it go. its a love-hate relationship. you want it and yet at the same time you don want it at all. because fantasy is so much more comforting, you are the player, no longer the pieces. you just get so wrapped up in your thoughts that everything else around seems unreal ironically.


that huge chunk up there just burst out. if you don understand , good. was meant to blog about some other probs but argh, decided not too.


fantasciano escape dan kireii