HARI RAYA VISITING(:

HARI RAYA VISITING. (:

went to fad's house around 2 . mans. i got lost taking the WRONG 291. idiot. thats all i can say. fad looks hot like yea, with the eyeliner , hazel contacts and beautifuuul baju kurung.

the food there was suuuupeeer nice arh. and her family was like super friendly. mans, her family comes from a line of totally beautiful ladies.

her two friends came and after a long while of crapping together in the comfort of he room and eating all the great food we go to tm. where we took neos and jus went shopping. hmm. not bad i din spend a single cent apart from the neos.

spent quite a long time chatting with fad while she was waitin for her bus. its jus made me miss even more. how i couldnt find anything to even critisise. how what fad thot was bad i thought was cute. at this rate, the situation's gonna remain like really stagnant. i doubt anyone would understand.. to them it may jus be another one. but in short like what fad said. its special. that girl still understands me like inside out.(: love ya babe ! and thanks for the pink guinea pig!

i cant believe i actually walked back to mcdonalds in hope of seeing for i saw like the fam. i was like looking abt when i first saw and fad was like ' omg , ur actually searching.'

I AM PATHETIC !

went to bugis after that to find my mum. dunno what got into me, must be the depressing mood in me. all that happened in the mrt when i almost cried was that i yawned. like what the.....

and who do i see in LVER. MAIA LEE. two stars in two days. wow, i'm one lucky fella.

its like . i aint got anybdy. the feeling is weird. sure ppl are around. but , its just diff. guess i was so dependent that when everything crashed so did i . i cant believe i'm actually clinging on to a non-existent hope. its so dumb but i cant help it. i feel so cowardly now..everytime i say something i'm like on the verge of nervousness, like the cold air jus gushing would leave me down for real long. so i just shut up when i have so much to say. and boy, it hurts like crazy. so near yet so far. even after all i've done all the precautions.. it still aint enough. its still fresh in my mind. the song still rings as if i wrote it yesterday. i doubt anyone would have comprehended what i jus wrote, jus as well.




cruising down the one-way lane of unrequitedness.
pathetic. if only.. if only... IF.