Everything happens for a Reason

end of year results are going to determine my life and death. i mean like seriously.. if i don get top 5 position for my class i dunno what i'll do. i cant imagine whats going to happen to me. i don think i can handle what my grandma would say, mid years drove me to the point of snap. so now, its major pressure cooker mode.......

and i think i'm gonna be depressed again...

my life jus so super screwed up. i cant do anything for anyone, i'm jus existing.. i wanna talk to someone? something? but i dunno who. i should jus wind up talking to romeo, who's my school bag and bf. i know very siao. but at least he's gonna be there, i can hug him without anyone giving snide comments, he's reliable, he is essential to me and he doesn break my heart.

or maybe my cats lah. at least they'll have some reaction .

lets start off my crap week,

i got public shaming. to me yes lah. one person stand at yellow line jus cos i din tuck my shirt in enough. and there were so many other ppl and mr soon only choose me. i don care abt the punishment, doesn bother me, its the shame that bothers me. betcha all the teachers got bad impression of me.

and i'm like i dnno. my grandma found out abt my altering my skirt. i'm at home now so all she did was call up to kp at me. its still kinda alrights now. i dunno what i'll do when i end up there on monday.

i dun understand whta the hell i did wrong.. all i did was alter my skirt so i wouldnt have to fold my skirt, she has always been complaining abt how difficult it is for her to iron after i fold. i thought i was doing her a favour. and its not as if i end up exposing myself indecently. i DO NOT whore my uniform till i look like some kinda ..... i jsu altered it as the school rule goes !

i'm a decent kid alrights . i don wear ankle socks in school anymore. and how am i going to tuck in my shirt to 2 cm if mr soon is gonna see my fold. i cant be wearing a 'wedding gown' as what all of them say when they see my actual skirt length.

i dunno. becos of this. i'm like down. and i dunno whether i should go east view today. got lantern night, i'm feeling sian. i'm not going tuititon either i guess,

i'm screwing up my damn life again lah.



end of years. i beg you i beg you. please let me get at least a 5 in my class position or i'll rather die,

swelling with all the @$#%*! but i'm not gonna let it out..