Everything happens for a Reason

suddenly..there's i'm so confused and mixed up and lonely....

"lonely.. i'm so lonely.. i've got nobody..i'm on my own...."

haish.. seriously... i'm jus so mixed up.. the problems.. i carn seem to open up anymore.. the feelings i wanna let out are like kept so laid down.. and the feelings that are meant to be laid down are springing out of my damn damn stupid idiotic mouth like poppies ... WHATS WRONG WITH ME??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna open up to some ppl but i carn seem to.. the one i thought i'll trust most is like ... driftiiing............................... we don talk much.. everything is going haywire and ya i'm jus confused... waaaaah... :'( ..... when i turn to friends now ... it means fun... i jus bottle up everythin and hopefully one day... i'll jus explode x) i carn seem to open up... haish...

now there's someone from way long ago.. who makes me wanna open up and jus say everything but there's jus this big big gap of about a span of 1 over years where the happenings are unknown to him.. so i'm stuck in the middle... again...

haish. i'm jus so confused now...jus all alone.. left alone.. yepp .. like derelic land.. uh-huh