Everything happens for a Reason

my existence is a mistake.

thats what you mean.

well thanks. i now know that i'm a useless freak.

wells. that was dedicated to my dear grandma. isnt that what you've always wanted to tell me. ? well i know it now. can someone like kill me or something. i dunno how long it'll be before i finally break down. to date . i dunno how many times i cut myself because of her. did it again. like what the hell . how many times must i do it before the pain goes away. every single time its like anger before the whole surge of hurt comes then i jus cry. today i relli couldn stop it. no matter who i think of i jus cant stop myself..haha.ya. you damn weida cut finger. then what am i god arh? i am a bad influence on the ppl around me .. so jus freak off.