meow meow

bwla~

chinese new year shopping ish so crappy.. i think i'm sick of shopping.. never realli liked it but like. don like it even more. haish.. no chinese new year mood not realli looking forward to cny anyway.. sianx.. got to see all the relatives. hear their dumb gossiping ( applies to my mum's side only.).. and the comparisons of stoopid results.. which results in me getting scolded and nagged at fer being so lousy at my studies and being useless... waaah... sian arh~ but like.. not as if i wanna be stuck in a office.. hmm.. nice pay .. nice working hours.. but its gonna be a very borriiing life... nice stuff never ever come easy.. *sobs*

i dunno what to do with my cuts.. its like realli damn obvious now.. since its on the back of my hand.. and like four diff wounds.. bwla.. never mind bah... think it'll heal soon on later bah.. haish.. if it doesn wells.. what diff does it make.. its jus shows the internal wounds that are there... wanna stop doing it but like dunno how.. haish.. da sao ask me don do it le.. ewe also ask me not to... but how? my grandma is like so pro at driving me to desperation.. haish.. i'm one pathetic person.. i knwo how to console and comfort ppl but it never works fer me.. :'(. even xueli also follow me.. what the crap sia... she went to cut her finger.. gota hide my wounds from her or not she's gonna think its something cool which she can do anyhow and then follow me... somebody kill me.. i'm a bad influence on the ppl around me... i never ever make anyone happy..

but today was nice .. as in the earlier part of the day... when i went fer the youth service.. jus find it damn fun and relaxing there.. ppl there are so friendly.. :D rawkin' ... got the neoprints which i took with jeslin and jana le... wahha.. kinda funny.. cos alot of them we were like lookin elsewhere.. eh.. cos of the guys who kept lookin in to irritate us...ernest and jerald werent that bad.. was the rest .... especially ken .. -_-.. and that guy's kinda slow.. he still doesn know.. and he doesn believe jeslin when she told him .... =_- lll...

nah wells ... i still got to go do my dnt.. don wan mr ang to come and kp me... :P lala... must be guai !!!! we be guai guai together okay ? ^-^ ewe must jia you fer eweur tests too... no more slacking ...

heh... wheee.... i saw ewe .. :D is there anything better?